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They tell mothers-to-be that they may not feel that motherly attachment to their baby the minute the baby is born. It has a lot to do with hormones, societal expectations, and culture. But they do tell them that the baby may seem foreign and unfamiliar at first, and it may take as long as two weeks or more to become familiar with this new life.
I didn't take to fatherhood at first. I guess that's unfair, I took to it just fine, but the minute Jillian was born, I was much more concerned about my wife who had just had a C-section than I was about the little baby. After all, if something happened to the baby, I'd still have Jenn and life would go on, albeit tragically. But if something happened to Jenn, I'd be crushed; devastated without direction.
I guess I could say I loved Jillian on day 1, but the truth is it took a few days to warm up to her. Babies really aren't much - they don't really tell you this - but they don't do anything. They just lay around, sleep, cry, crap, and occasionally feed. They don't smile, focus, laugh, or express any emotion. They mainly sleep and cry.
As time went on, each day, I'd find myself a little more enamored with baby. Each day, really around 2 months, she started becoming more and more a real person. She started smiling. She stopped crying all the time. She started expressing preference for one person over another. And I realized that I had a nice emotional bond with her.
Around 3 months, she started to actually develop some muscle and was able to hold her own weight on her knees if you balanced her. She chortled her first laughs and started being more comfortable in her own skin. She began to understand diaper changing and bottle preperation.
She just turned 6 months, now entering her 7th, and I just realized - I am paralyzed by how much I love my daughter. Now she sits up and rolls over. She communicates with us in so many ways and understands her surroundings like I never anticpated. She likes playing with the dog. She focuses on the TV and even prefers certain shows. She's a full fledged person - she's graduated from baby to infant.
As a new parent, you're pre-conditioned to think you will love your child in a magical way. But I'm not sure people are capable of turning love on and off like that. Maybe mothers, who have a different kind of bond with an in utero child, but certain fathers are challenged to go from 0-60 on day 1. But the truth is, it doesn't take long before you are won over by the absolute magic that is parenthood.
I can't imagine life without my baby girl, and, as a parent, I worry about things that never would have crossed my mind. I spend time daydreaming during the day about hanging out with my kid and think about how much fun we'll have when she's just a little older. The other day I literally broke down in unexpected tears listening to the Beatles' Golden Slumbers thinking about her, and I honestly can't remember the last time I cried.
Being a parent subjects you to strong emotion and deep love in a manner I'm not certain one can truly understand until they experience it themselves. The idea that a piece of you is alive in this person, this person you have to strain to see as anything but perfect, it's overwhelming. And it's absolutely, positively wonderful.
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We're at the hospital. We were just admitted - now it's just a waiting game.
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Much like the internet phenomenon "LOLcats," comes today's Fark featurette, "LOLPresidents." Check them out:
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Lee Iacocca has said everything I think about America and our leaders better than I could say it myself.
If you get a chance, this is really worth 5 minutes of your time: Iacocca: Where Have All the Leaders Gone?
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So, I started thinking that I spend a lot of time angry. Angry at this nasty, deplorable administration, angry about stupid people and practices, angry about oversensitivity and having a general hatred for most of what mankind has become. Writings like this one by Kurt Vonnegut fire me up, and then I have to deal with stuff like this story, where a girl is being sued for saying "That's so gay." How about this wimp puss knucklehead guy who is suing a 7 year old girl for mistakenly rollerblading into his way while he was on his bike. Let's not forget the most important story in American: the conflict over the final resting place of Anna Nicole Smith trial.
It's just part and parcel of things - we stupid humans get get worked up about the most stupid things. I mean, seriously ...why? Life is way too short for the riduculousness we force ourselves to endure.
We as humans thrive on conflict. We crave it. We hunger for it. We create things just to breed it. Our most revered events are based on competition which is just a more benign form of conflict.
So I am going to do my part and report, at least once in awhile, some GOOD things. Things that are good for the spirit. Things that are hopeful and inspiring. Things that make your feel good on the inside. Things that aren't just long rants about how George W. Bush has broken America or somesuch.
Here's the first one: A few months ago, I saw this story about this kid Benjamin Underwood, who lost his eyes to cancer at 3 years old. Since then, he's developed his sense of hearing so profoundly that he uses a click system, known as echolocation, when found in animals like bats, to "see." Ben is capable of detecting the most minute changes in frequency and timing, and as a result, can judge the distance to certain objects. He's so fine-tuned his skills that he can actually pretty close guess what objects are in front of him. It's really quite amazing. Watch the video, and hopefully you'll feel as warm as I did.
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Tags: New Years
This is it. Last post of 2006 (EST). After this, we're on our way to A+J's house.
A happy, healthy, safe new year to you and yours.
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Success! Unfortunately, I was not able to get PN2 running on ReactOS. However, I'm pretty impressed with ReactOS and will probably keep abreast of the development. If, on day, it's more stable via Parallels, I'll be all over it.
In the meantime, I fired up a copy of Windows XP inside Parallels and it installed quickly, easily, and painlessly, actually, and kind of surprisingly, a lot easier than it ever was to install Windows FOR REAL. It took about 40 minutes, and I never had to interact with it even once - Paralles installed XP, configured and entered the CD Key, and even added Parallels native drivers. I am impressed.
I installed PN2 as well as AVG antivirus and AVG anti-spyware (new app? Never used it before!). Then I tried out coherence mode. Beautiful. Absolutely beautfiul. Did I mention that Parallels put XP on my Mac network and I easily opened files on my Mac from my new Windows installation? Gorgeous.
So, here is the finished product: XP running on my Mac. Note that PN2 is sandwiched *between* Mac windows. Cleartype is on and works. The apps feels great. The whole thing is just ... awesome. This is an amazing feat.
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After reading an article on The Reg that claims that the Danes have blocked access to AllOfMP3.com, I decided to spout off a bit about this. The RIAA and record labels need to wake the heck up and listen to consumers. And they are speaking VERY loudly. Continued...
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1. CRACKED magazine online reports about 5 Movies Hollywood Needs to Stop Making Now. It's hilarious.
2. Youtube is simply amazing. So, without further adue, something you could only find on the internet: Japanese pen tricks. It's like extreme "penning," or something.
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I'm not going to blog this, because every other site on the Internet is going to over-report it, but the WWDC started today and the Keynote held few major surprises. For me, the biggest thing announced is Time Machine, the version control system built into Mac OS X Leopard. I wonder if it's built on Subversion or CVS or something new. Let's not forget that Microsoft already has volume shadow copy, which is already deployed and as far as I'm concerned, invaluable to daily business. But alas, until spring...
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>> On Fatherhood 2008-04-22 14:37:17
They tell mothers-to-be that they may not feel that motherly attachment to their baby the minute the baby is born. It has a lot to do with hormones, societal expectations, and culture. But they do tell them that the baby may seem foreign and unfamiliar at first, and it may take as long as two weeks or more to become familiar with this new life. I didn't take to fatherhood at first. I guess that's unfair, I took to it just fine, but the minute Jillian was born, I was much more concerned about my wife who had just had a C-section than I was about the little baby. After all, if something happened to the baby, I'd still have Jenn and life would go on, albeit tragically. But if something happened to Jenn, I'd be crushed; devastated without direction.
I guess I could say I loved Jillian on day 1, but the truth is it took a few days to warm up to her. Babies really aren't much - they don't really tell you this - but they don't do anything. They just lay around, sleep, cry, crap, and occasionally feed. They don't smile, focus, laugh, or express any emotion. They mainly sleep and cry.
As time went on, each day, I'd find myself a little more enamored with baby. Each day, really around 2 months, she started becoming more and more a real person. She started smiling. She stopped crying all the time. She started expressing preference for one person over another. And I realized that I had a nice emotional bond with her.
Around 3 months, she started to actually develop some muscle and was able to hold her own weight on her knees if you balanced her. She chortled her first laughs and started being more comfortable in her own skin. She began to understand diaper changing and bottle preperation.
She just turned 6 months, now entering her 7th, and I just realized - I am paralyzed by how much I love my daughter. Now she sits up and rolls over. She communicates with us in so many ways and understands her surroundings like I never anticpated. She likes playing with the dog. She focuses on the TV and even prefers certain shows. She's a full fledged person - she's graduated from baby to infant.
As a new parent, you're pre-conditioned to think you will love your child in a magical way. But I'm not sure people are capable of turning love on and off like that. Maybe mothers, who have a different kind of bond with an in utero child, but certain fathers are challenged to go from 0-60 on day 1. But the truth is, it doesn't take long before you are won over by the absolute magic that is parenthood.
I can't imagine life without my baby girl, and, as a parent, I worry about things that never would have crossed my mind. I spend time daydreaming during the day about hanging out with my kid and think about how much fun we'll have when she's just a little older. The other day I literally broke down in unexpected tears listening to the Beatles' Golden Slumbers thinking about her, and I honestly can't remember the last time I cried.
Being a parent subjects you to strong emotion and deep love in a manner I'm not certain one can truly understand until they experience it themselves. The idea that a piece of you is alive in this person, this person you have to strain to see as anything but perfect, it's overwhelming. And it's absolutely, positively wonderful.
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>> Live Blogging the Birth: Chapter 1 2007-10-15 21:09:58
We're at the hospital. We were just admitted - now it's just a waiting game.
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>> LOLPresidents 2007-05-24 14:00:33
Much like the internet phenomenon "LOLcats," comes today's Fark featurette, "LOLPresidents." Check them out:
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1134 view(s)
>> Iacocca: Where Have All the Leaders Gone? 2007-04-16 16:56:00
Lee Iacocca has said everything I think about America and our leaders better than I could say it myself. If you get a chance, this is really worth 5 minutes of your time: Iacocca: Where Have All the Leaders Gone?
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>> We Thrive on Conflict 2007-03-02 15:15:59
So, I started thinking that I spend a lot of time angry. Angry at this nasty, deplorable administration, angry about stupid people and practices, angry about oversensitivity and having a general hatred for most of what mankind has become. Writings like this one by Kurt Vonnegut fire me up, and then I have to deal with stuff like this story, where a girl is being sued for saying "That's so gay." How about this It's just part and parcel of things - we stupid humans get get worked up about the most stupid things. I mean, seriously ...why? Life is way too short for the riduculousness we force ourselves to endure.
We as humans thrive on conflict. We crave it. We hunger for it. We create things just to breed it. Our most revered events are based on competition which is just a more benign form of conflict.
So I am going to do my part and report, at least once in awhile, some GOOD things. Things that are good for the spirit. Things that are hopeful and inspiring. Things that make your feel good on the inside. Things that aren't just long rants about how George W. Bush has broken America or somesuch.
Here's the first one: A few months ago, I saw this story about this kid Benjamin Underwood, who lost his eyes to cancer at 3 years old. Since then, he's developed his sense of hearing so profoundly that he uses a click system, known as echolocation, when found in animals like bats, to "see." Ben is capable of detecting the most minute changes in frequency and timing, and as a result, can judge the distance to certain objects. He's so fine-tuned his skills that he can actually pretty close guess what objects are in front of him. It's really quite amazing. Watch the video, and hopefully you'll feel as warm as I did.
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>> Last Post of 2006 2006-12-31 19:52:02
Tags: New Years
This is it. Last post of 2006 (EST). After this, we're on our way to A+J's house. A happy, healthy, safe new year to you and yours.
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>> The Quest for PN on OS X, Part II 2006-12-08 23:13:17
Success! Unfortunately, I was not able to get PN2 running on ReactOS. However, I'm pretty impressed with ReactOS and will probably keep abreast of the development. If, on day, it's more stable via Parallels, I'll be all over it. In the meantime, I fired up a copy of Windows XP inside Parallels and it installed quickly, easily, and painlessly, actually, and kind of surprisingly, a lot easier than it ever was to install Windows FOR REAL. It took about 40 minutes, and I never had to interact with it even once - Paralles installed XP, configured and entered the CD Key, and even added Parallels native drivers. I am impressed.
I installed PN2 as well as AVG antivirus and AVG anti-spyware (new app? Never used it before!). Then I tried out coherence mode. Beautiful. Absolutely beautfiul. Did I mention that Parallels put XP on my Mac network and I easily opened files on my Mac from my new Windows installation? Gorgeous.
So, here is the finished product: XP running on my Mac. Note that PN2 is sandwiched *between* Mac windows. Cleartype is on and works. The apps feels great. The whole thing is just ... awesome. This is an amazing feat.
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>> What We Learned From AllOfMP3 2006-10-26 11:57:22
After reading an article on The Reg that claims that the Danes have blocked access to AllOfMP3.com, I decided to spout off a bit about this. The RIAA and record labels need to wake the heck up and listen to consumers. And they are speaking VERY loudly. Continued...
Complete Story (357 words) |
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>> Two Quickies 2006-09-22 14:59:56
1. CRACKED magazine online reports about 5 Movies Hollywood Needs to Stop Making Now. It's hilarious. 2. Youtube is simply amazing. So, without further adue, something you could only find on the internet: Japanese pen tricks. It's like extreme "penning," or something.
Comments (0) |
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>> Leopard This Spring 2006-08-07 14:43:13
I'm not going to blog this, because every other site on the Internet is going to over-report it, but the WWDC started today and the Keynote held few major surprises. For me, the biggest thing announced is Time Machine, the version control system built into Mac OS X Leopard. I wonder if it's built on Subversion or CVS or something new. Let's not forget that Microsoft already has volume shadow copy, which is already deployed and as far as I'm concerned, invaluable to daily business. But alas, until spring...
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